I witnessed a very horrible scene today. I was getting my 6 month recheck on my mammogram (remember in April, I was diagnosed with Fibrocystic Condition). Anyway, a patient from inside the hospital came in for the appointment after me. After I was finished I came out to the waiting room to get my jacket and there was a doctor in there explaining how ovarian cancer could go undetected and it metastizing to the bones was not uncommon. OMG...they were telling in there, before she was getting her mammogram, and not privately somewhere. At least at Sloan Kettering, they brought us into a private conference room to give us the lowdown on my dad and we were aloud to cry in private and stay in this private room for a good hour or two.

My dad had a tube with a drain inserted to today, that goes from his liver, out of his chest and drains bile and other fluids into a bag. They did it under local anesthesia and my dad told my mom not to bother coming in tonight :-( They were presented with problems, of course, cuz this IS my dad they were working on. They might *refine* it tomorrow, and then go back in next week to insert a larger tube.....Is this worth it?? Is it causing him pain?? Isn't he just dying as it is?? Now, hopefully this will eliminate the fever and infections he was getting.....I thought the stomach operation was supposed to do that.......they are truly just assuming, testing and trying to repair as they go along... ::sigh::

I don't mean this to sound so final, cuz hell, he might have a year left in him, but he also could go at anytime, suddenly.....it is up to him.

This place has a familiar feel to it...... I found this from another acquiantance online who was searching out lesbian sites... Oh, look there is the Lesbian Cafe.....this is great! Oh, look at the top, it links to Momslife.

Please update your reads to remove Catty Bitches...thank you

Hey, thanks for letting me know that your decision would affect some of my things. I guess I now know where I stand... What's that line *guilty by association*, I thought you were more mature than that. Ha!

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Behaviour
A light bringer and enlightener.

Seen When
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Habitat
In forests of oak and lime.

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I see this has returned, LOL..... Happy Halloween

Hmmm...says I published last night, but it's not showing.....trying again

Didja ever feel like someone's been in your chair, ya know, like hacked into an account of yours just to look around... feels creepy

I feel like I want to be out at a nice quiet bar tonight, listening to some guy singing songs with his guitar...

Well, just got done talking to my mother about yesterday's doctor visit......The prognosis for my father is 6 months.....from June.....you do the math......

::sniff, sniff:: Are you smelling that too.....it's Cheddar Crust Vermont Apple Pie that I got out of Good Housekeeping, ages ago..... Never had it before...I'm sure it'll be delish.

Mmm......smell that?? It's my Apple Spice Bars cooling off upstairs......

I can't wait for later, a rollerskating birthday party that I get to bring ALL 3 of MY CHILDREN too..... Actually, Johnny's gone 2x before, as has Steffi, so if I can keep Tommy upright, all should be well.

Hehe....I was a BAD girl tonight, but enjoyed it immensely......bending over for my spanking now.....uh huh....just like that......Oh, excuse me.....I must have been drifting away......

Not that I needed a recipe, but, we had this for dinner tonight. I'm an awesome mommy!!

Oh, I am so lame.....gotta get back into daily blogging to please my readers, LOL.

I will start off with the bad news first. Since dad has come home, he doesn't feel like eating, for no other reason that he just doesn't want to. He lays around the house all day doing nothing, so mom and I think that he is in a severe depression. They go into the city on Thursday, so my mom will bring this up, if he doesn't first. My mom told me she goes into work everyday to escape it.

Now......on Friday, we went apple picking, so later on this week, I'll have to make some of my kickass apple pies, that some of you have tasted last fall. I made apple pancakes (apfelpfannkuchen) for dinner on Friday with some grilled Bratwurst. They were YUMMAY.

We spent the night with 4 other families getting lost in a corn maze and finally giving up after two hours. It was fun, and I think our biggest downfall was that the kids were taking turns trying to get us out, LOL.

Saturday, soccer, soccer and more soccer.

Sunday, my mom took us to the mall to buy winter jackets and a boat load of other things.

Today, I went on another 2.4 mile walk, which I do once a week. I'm thinking it'd be really cool if I did that every day ;-)

I have completed the PTA audit and snow chain, so my desk is getting clear, YIPPEE......

Ooh, that's the timer, dinner's ready......ttyl

I went into the city yesterday to see Dad. He's doing GREAT recovering and he was proud to show me his 8 inch incision that was stapled closed. He's getting in and out of bed unassisted, walking laps in the hospital, and eating food again. His naseau is gone and his pulse rate is back up into the 60's. He has one more minor procedure to be done, but they might let his body rest before they do that. Hopefully the whole sickness/fever stumbling block is over and done with and they can get back to his chemo treatments.

I went on a trail ride today, and we were cantoring for a good 5 minutes......Holy Schmoley, I never ran that fast or for that amount of time, but it was SO exhilirating. My horse's name was Cinnamon and was SUCH a good horse. The leaves were changing and the air was crisp, so I think this was probably our last ride until March or April, unless there is a unseasonably warm day this winter.

What else.....snow chain is now complete.....the PTA treasurer's audit is 99.5% done.....all my books for the Cub Scout Pack and Brownie Troop are all set up, only 3 more soccer games per kid left, so things are semi-slowing down.

Wednesday is our anniversary.....I bought him some Omaha steaks and will cook them with shrimp, but other than that I don't think we are exchanging anything. Well, he did buy me the membership to the gym for part of a present, but I'm not counting that. I don't know what else to get him. Hmm.....I just asked him if we need to exchange presents and he says he thinks he got me something today, LOL.

Well, my dad is in recovery, so hopefully the doc will call my mom soon and give us a rundown of everything. I just had a breakdown because my mom doesn't want to go into the city with me and I feel like someone should be there when he gets back in his room, only if it is for a noncoherent moment or so for my dad. She is going in tomorrow, but I don't know anything about how or when. I am shutting myself off from her and my sister for the rest of the day, because all their little quirks and personality conflicts are raging full storm at me today. Could be my PMS as well, LOL.

I had no errands to run today, just a couple of odd jobs around the house, so here I sit at 1pm in my *cleaning clothes* (old sweats and old tshirt) with no shower and no desire to dirty the bathroom, after I just cleaned it, LOL.

Fall has arrived, and today we get a bonus, a beautifully warm sunny day to go outside and enjoy the colors.

The hospital my dad is in is squeezing him into the surgery schedule this afternoon. I just called his room to see if he was taken yet, and there was no answer, so I check with patient information, and they assure me that he is not on the schedule for today. Which, I know different and they are right, he wasn't technically scheduled for today.....so I am hoping when it is all said and done that the doc will truly call my mom and give an update. I am torn between going into the city and not.....

It's been a rough couple of days. My dad has to undergo surgery tomorrow to fix his digestive system...lots of stuff going on, lots of questions to answer, but they can't be answered until the doc is in there and then will *get creative*. While visiting him yesterday (in Manhattan), we passed by makeshift memorials, a firehouse, and saw the skyline. That was another experience all it's own.

I can't believe it's October already, and what I've accomplished in all my duties (Brownie leader, Snow Chain Chairperson, 2nd VP of Newcomers)

I am also grateful for making a good friend into a great one. I've been spending a lot of time with her and was grateful for a good cry with her on Friday night. Her mom passed away within the last 5 years, and I finally got around to asking her if she wanted to let me in on that, but with all the stuff happening around the country, and how she's been personally affected, she told me "when the time is right". She said before September 11th, she could talk about it no problem, but now she's just too emotional, in general.

I need to go make a dinner for a member of the Newcomers Club that had surgery last week, so I'm off. Have a great week.